sometimes when i am not so resolute...

sometimes when i am not so resolute
no convictions hovering on my mind
to shun away the unnecessary web
that i have woven all around me
its then that i wanna be with u
to be silly as a child
to just do whatever my whim decides
to come to thee n hold your hand
make u laugh n dance to joyous tunes
n all the while being silly
till then i don't care for what is apt
what must be done -as per norms
then i feel -its just this day n this moment
i truly wanna live - madly, zestfully n totally
n then with a deep sigh it all vanishes
as if we are slaves of our own convictions
self imposed limitations and conduct
for whom-so-ever
but then its so short lived
n there are so many futile worries
that concepts of right n wrong are often mingled
as if by fearing we are ever spared
yet the thought survives n dictates
n we kill the thoughts which feel reviving
living a stale monotone - in the hope
that future will behold some nice clarity
n change the indecision for once and for all