Seeking Clarity

the coolness is in attitude , in conduct, in mannerism or in the being
the satisfaction is in wat we do , wat we hav or wat we believe
existence is in future , in past or in present
d questions dat haunt -r dose we face , v live or we cudnt solve from long
wat is exactly the clue - to the universal truth
to the one thing dat settles all cloudy doubts
the clutter is wat we r into , we went through or wat we are creating
the beauty is wat we see , wat we perceive , or wats d soal aim of creation
wat is it - dat settles for once n for all -
all the myths , all illusions , all futile brainless , senseless wandering
n unwarranted zillion plights........
we talk of science n of progress
we talk of learning n advancement
when wat all my heart yearns for is nature's perfection
yet we cant seek a way back to nature ,,,,,,
cause dats ghastly - unimaginble , completely defeatistic , holistic approach
wat exists is the best -den wherein came the question of moving on
natural selection n survival of the fittest
no - no - not at all ..........
there's a missing link dat we refuse to hold on
yet amidst all - i don understand - all dat just purvades dis unlearned docile self
is strange conviction , strange in the name of faith
that it is just one thread n varied forms
its the creator n his creations
its something we are part of .......
yet in daily life - its useless , timeless , bugging n frights
wat it is - dat gives multitude sleepless nights
yearning for something dats out of our control
an exaggerated sense of supremacy , dats unfounded
or just a stupidity -n volubility -making it worse
dis clarity has evaded me for so long.......
caught in the web , i get messed up -
till i tear all n come alive
den i am a spectator - no more a part of woving cloud ..an changing clowns
den i am unaware of wat went by -n i just passively stand
then too its no use - for i get onto the same basics i learnt long ago
n yet i know i am gonna tread to the web dat i will b interwoven into ,
again to break all - n make a new start -
but it seems to lead no where - serve no good n make no sense

if its clarity -a simplicity dat i miss- am all open to seek it
search it , unlearn all cogging details - n open up to all possibilities
but God ! if dere's u nywhere or everywhere - gimme d missing lead
gimme smthg dat serves as d basics.....amidst boundless quotes
i hav forgotten all - n i am not sure of nything at all.........
if purpose is wat all matters
den wat is this element called "wish"
if sharing is the ultimate "bliss"
y dese endless clashes to grab all by a single being
if smile is the fondest expression - y its a mark of foolishness
if simple is everything - y life seems just undecipherable
demeanour was never my cup of tea
neither control n maturity
yet i need to seek this clarity
for the sake of being.....!!!!!!!!