lost or found..

I am so lost
that can’t find myself
something strange
keeps turning in me
is it for good I ask?
but then, never answer
for again, I am lost
hours, minutes, seconds
dunno what it was
the stillness or the incessant waves
or a trance
or when i was back again
never knew,
what was it that I thought
so lost, so lost
yet again, for better, for worse
incessant smile, caught my eye
what was it, again?
maybe it was reflection
for it was just a mirror
real world or virtual
the difference keeps fading
just the moments seem gone
don’t ask where
its beautiful out there
the world of calm
no running, no worries
joy that permeates expressions
existence, so complete in itself..