Friday, May 30, 2014

when it all ends, i’ll look back

when euphoria fades
when dust settles
when i stop being enamored
I will see the things being done

when its past primetime
when its the usual chore
when the tabloids
are full of all half truths
I will see where it goes

when cascade ends
when avalanche starts
when lime-light sucks all in
when I dwell in things past
and look back on the proceedings
I’ll see, what happened

Rest in peace, human rights
rest in your solitary cell
Who’s the breed called activist
its my way or highway, my friends

when soil settles, post stampede
when royal cavalcade of exaggerations end
when things shade towards truth
when the time is apt
and the cards are right
I’ll marvel on existence
and the term called facts

Friday, May 23, 2014

a little at a time

I don't wanna breach mountains in one go
I don't wanna slay the demon
with singular lame wound
I'll walk a little day after day
I won't burn your kingdom and run away
for superhuman I am not

I won't be deterred by monkey's
having the mischief on way
clinging and shunning
as per convenience
I won't be wasted
in indulging with them
with aim set, with head high
I will tread amidst the turmoil
that's what I am told
brings the difference

not giving it all up
on one dark day

I am told if you walk enough
you might reach there some day
but if you give up
there's definitely no other way
here I am, a living martyr
bearing stones and slabs
hopefully the future will see
the struggle it had been
and appreciate that their was someone
strong enough, to try it till the end

I'll tread, these insignificant little steps
I won't paint the moon on glassy surface
as its not a dreamland
there are no fairies
no-one has a wand to rescue the dearth
no-one even knows how low it has sunk
yet they bear it, every single day
thinking its just a day

i can't take on this giant
its not my responsibility
but you
burden is on you
for you have seen
for you have courage
for you have been persistent
no cake walk, is a huge detterent
in this fast age, we need a button
sadly no one has one
not even you
so your end, seems hollow statements
but you won't mind them
i believe

if you will
ofcourse i will understand
for giving up on life
for someone not even aware
is not I would be willing to do
maybe if I gain infinite patience
maybe, some day, if I am strong enough...


you have withstood the test of time
you have shaped dreams,
you have created vision
generated hope in deep darkness
you sir, will be there
till the time permits
i might not join you yet
i am a coward
i don't like being pelted
maybe when i am enlightened enough

but you sir, must walk
little by little
there are few of us
still not blinded
by forged lights
few who know
what is needed

you sir little by little
must walk
the path must be treaded on
destiny might be visible
it might never be reached
but you will instill
the much sought hope
the all powerful hope
but yes, something can be done!!
no matter how deep it may seem
no matter how very challenging
even a person
can be the difference!!

Thursday, April 24, 2014

rise, above the blinded eyes...

hide behind the vocabulary of abuse
hide in snide remarks
lament of a hidden agenda
shout all you can
for once he goes,
there will be no-one
and you will be back
cursing all-mighty
for the state we are in

never before, a person stood tall
amongst all odds
never before i witnessed a hero
you say, Indira was one
who gave us one and only blot
on democracy
you say Rajiv  was
ofcourse the epicenter
of corruptions
yes, i said it
the keyword
which prompted all
"corruption"

no common, shout abuse, be a retard
call all names you can
but where were you all this while
when the country was bleeding
ailing under the so called awesome rulers
or for that matter oppositions
you say Modi wave,
the stable government
ofcourse I would love it
if he would have fielded
deserving candidates
you feel empowered
slapping Kejriwal
sharing funny posts of that
try this with Modi
wait, you can't

haha, funny isn't it
some people are more equal than others
and those who are not
who are amongst us
lets show them, they are no better
than us,
the best way is to be silent
and adjust,
afterall we thrive on jugaad

lets just shout all we can
we are a country of believers
a little too much
of aristocracy, of family names
of rules illogical, wild, insane
so called traditions

we perpetrate humanity
in the name of culture
yes, you, go ahead
elect all the criminals
you can,
and when your constituency
reaches its heights
accept my congratulations
for job well done
for in history of last 60 years
it has never happened
it was too deep shit
to be helped

yes, the concerned considerate beings
may you be blessed
as long as you choose your well
just don't burn my home or my friends
for silly votes of divide and break
else i don't seek any other mess
don't incite my friends, against me
for your power hungry politics
don't eat up our national reserves
built by taxing us, counting on our labour
don't fill up your pockets with shares
and drag development projects to decades
and then get it made with sub-standard products

for when that bridge breaks
its us who pay by our life
we pay, for your greediness
and for being blind in faith
when you create all havoc
none of you die
its us, our friends
the common people
caught in the mess
created by your efforts

Modi, Kejriwal, Nitish, Shivraj
whoever works
do elect them
but criminals
please have zero tolerance
its high time
we think of the nation
each person counts
each constituency deserves the best
one man never rules
at the end, whom you elect
is your leader
have a competent one
refuse to accept less
whoever may take up the shrine
your place too deserves the best
we are a democracy, after all

Friday, April 18, 2014

just dots...

its a series of jots and dots
it can be as well be a blotch
or a fairy in a snow clad peak
it can be the prairies
or the rainbows, the green leaves

its after all just few dots
crammed in clusters
clumsily, filling space ...
we call it a painting
the high sounding art

the blue sea and the orange sky
the feel of wind brushing against the skin
or the scent of love
it can project all

the art, the sculpture, the painting
stand there and relish
the constituents of all
the atoms, the pixels, the dots

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

rant

Depression was how she died, her husband was a jerk. Then why she did not just leave him?
She could have divorced him.

No you don't understand, Divorce is not easy in India. And if you are uneducated woman who cannot earn for yourself, you have nowhere to go. Isn't it the fallacy, you don't teach the girls of this country, as the boys need to be the breadwinner, while she is the one who needs to learn culinary skills and manage home ultimately, which btw doesn't matter, as money rules. So when you marry your uneducated daughter off, basically  you are wielding the power and control of her life to whatever that guy turns out to be.
That's a lot lot power to have, and if that guy turns out to be jerk and they have had few kids already as per the prompt Indian thing to have, for matching the portfolio of "perfect ages and next things to do in life". Then ofcourse the woman is screwed.

Yes I pitied that lady, who died of depression. Common this is 21st century we are talking of. System, its meant to protect people. No matter how large be their number. Its called system for that matter. That's why you are so scared to fall off the system, that half of the time you are stuck somewhere you don't belong, to fit in somehow and tread along. Be depressed but have the meals and mostly die of heart attack, rather than helplessness or long sustained depression.

Yes the loudest shout and voice is often of those who have no idea how it is like on the other end, of being there. There are people out there, living it day in day out, girls being killed -as lets face it, they are too much of a liability. And isn't the whole dictum of this system we live in, is "be an asset, not a liability". So hey why curse the system, it needs class to maintain exquisite things, like liabilities, so let those who can afford it, manage it. Why should everyone toe the line, in the name of law. Oh yes and since we are so supposed to be living as per "Indian tradition", no matter how limited its knowledge is, or even if no-one knows what it means, or no matter what an absolutely illiterate person is the one dictating it, lets face it, "being a girl and getting treated as a human being" is definitely not the part of our traditions.

 If you are a girl, better be obedient, subservient, homely, low-voice, good countenance, submissive being. Depression? for what? Education? why do you need it? Safety? well don't step out, you know guys can earn. Rape? "boys are boys, mistakes ho jaati hain". Remind me which barbaric age we are living in? Oh yes "the imposed  and self asserted notions of being traditional ..oops sorry of following our culture.

Do they even know what culture means. I suppose not, and I am no one to question them. For yes it will be way out of line. You just need to follow instructions and be at home, depression, all your fault. Dowry deaths must be the girls fault, after all - lets face it "uneducated, not earning, eating 4 times meals(which she cooked btw- but doesn't count, its her job, unpaid one ofcourse, else what will she do all day long, its so easy for her, she can sit at home and sip tea while guy has to go out and sweat to earn bread and butter. lucky she.)

Well what was it? yes depression, she died of depression. This is 21st century and it happens. After all "boys are boys, mistakes ho jati hain" but girls should toe the line, be at home, learn to be a good homemaker, sit at home as "safety is in your own hands and maybe is in sitting at home" and if you are fucked up in home, you need to swallow it down lady, as you are having an easy time. Sitting at home, doing nothing, what do you have to do in the world. 

Isn't the system is supposed to provide opportunities and conducive environment. What do I know, when its the end which matters. This end just happens to be of discrimination, dominance and depression. Lets face it, girls are just too dumb, bearing and putting up with this, till this date. Ya ask me that question. 

3 kids, all girls. They were married off. Job done. Thank god, timely done. She lived till the week before the last one was to get married, hanged on all depressed. Couldn't manage the last week, died. Well maybe its not that bad, as the marriage is still on, as people pool in dowry, just in case, guy has 2nd thoughts.He deserves a price for keeping that liability for lifetime.  Lets just pray that this story doesn't become her story, a story of depression. As what else can we do, all is in god's own hands. We have grown too savage for humans and too blind to see the truth, as we are summoned and rightly living the cultured life, where only half the race is human, rest is born to be slave.

History repeats itself, I heard. I thought of all those manu's out there writing books on the disease womenfolk is. What good she is but to nurture few kids, who again will mistreat and continue this legacy. Indian women should toe the line, not follow the common sense, as ofcourse its against our culture to be humane. But guess what, it was not a history after-all. Its here, right here, in minds of few men? Can it even exist if someone has a tidbit of mind or sense. Well what do I know, I am of that stupid race, yes women, the silly stupid disgrace.

Oh I am just talking of the village folk, people. Don't take it personally. I see the lady laborers, carrying load after loads of bricks on head. But they would be paid less, way lesser, as they are silly woman, worth for nothing. I see my friends, just outcasted in decision making, as what will they know, its the men running the country, you are not to have a word. Yes, here I said it 'liability, incompetent' . 500 Years of passing legacy of illiteracy and dominance. We need to follow it to dying breath else be justly hanged/killed for being uncultured. Anything is justified for the glorious image we perceive we represent. Oh sorry by we, I ofcourse mean- the asset, the humans, the truly deserving beings, the masters.

We hear all these glorious tales of victory and of race. We see the might of words, we see the larger than life figures in drama, taking over the whole world, or saving the dying humanity. Guess real world is not that fake. No-one is going to save you. If you are uneducated, jobless, woman, you are destined for the confines of walls and even there if it doesn't turns out well. Well feel free to die and land in hell, as woman where else do you aspire to land up in. You useless liability. Its just a choice which hell would you like to land in.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Travel resources..

1) http://www.nomadicmatt.com//
2) http://www.crossingworldborders.com/
3) http://www.bootsnall.com/
4) https://www.wanderingearl.com/
5) http://onestep4ward.com/

Friday, March 21, 2014

who can tell


whats more imp
the poetry you wrote
the code that ran
the smile contagious
the flower's fragrance
the chirp of  brids
the murmur of cascade
the lair of forest
song of the rain
one can never tell

new day, past shadows..

there u stand
with shadows fraught
the glimpses of past
drowning with the setting sun
as the birds chirp
flying away to nest
reiterating, a new day
is soon to start...........


Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Bheja Fry


i am so much into me
all the time chattering
of things i am concerned with
but not today,
today would be your day
so tel-me
what's going on with u?
well...
you know what you need
a good makeover!!
remember when I got one, last time
it was so amazing
people kept asking me zillion questions
broke all monotony for long

maybe i should also get a new hairstyle,
or new shades or something
whats this fragrance?
wow, its mine, which perfume i wore, i wonder
not today, maybe last time i wore it
its really nice
if everyone smelled nice
it would be so good

anyways you know, i was watching this episode
and everyone was so damn funny in it!!
made me laugh for hours
but now i feel so low
why i am bothering u with it?
do u think i need to be little silent
i talk so much!!
well see again...
its again all of me
no, won't let it happen this time
smartyy, how do you shrug away
but today is your day!!

so you need to tell me things
like what are you upto these days?
what is right/not right
common, you can share with me
i won't tell anyone
i am a good secret keeper
you  know- so many people told me so many things
and best part is - I forgot all those secrets :)
only when they remind me, i recollect
how awesome is that!!

lemme guess- you want to go for an outing?
don't you? haha- see got you
well its a generic thing
all want to get out of whatever
they are doing
but its never a solution, is it?
sometimes I wonder
why so much complexity
in such a short life
what if we could have been like monkeys
going on a rampage to eat
and else just hanging here and there
running, following, roaming around
what's the use of science, studies, work
life is so compartmentalized
you keep on doing something
just to hang on
to pass another day

kill your aspirations and desires
hopes and dreams - to guarantee a secure future
and what is this security, we are chasing?
there is no security in the world
no matter what you do
things will get messed up
why not live it the way you want
but then its so difficult
or atleast it seems like that

often I find myself so confused
what to do, what not to do
and then I want to ditch it all
and run away, live like a gypsy
if only i was a guy, i could have
just left it all...
but then even they are not so free
isn't it?
there are bad people, mafia and dons
they can hurt any normal person

uhh we all seek aloofness
yet we cannot have it, as then your 
existence is endangered
so much is wrong in this world
that i dunno
how it can ever be helped

anyways i am not feeling good
why did i started on this
no heavy stuff please
lets just talk of something vain
have you seen heard funny joke lately?
tv series, movie, novel?
i just want to laugh
forget everything
maybe throw pebbles in the lake
and watch it for hours on
you must be bored to death no
then why don't you say anything
today i said, I'll just listen
but you, are you
you just want people to entertain you
not gonna happen
today is your day!!!


PS- Some people are just impossible, aren't they :P
Disclaimer- inspired by 1 random event and its purely fictional, it has nothing to do with any person or
real happening.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

farewell….

I don wanna miss on chaos and be a monk
for its what we have nothing of, we keep on chasing
I don wanna leave science behind
it will be like breaking up with grandiose
I don wanna be stranger to art-forms
it will be like willingly shunning the enlightenment
the grass on other side attracts us the most, occupies our mind
peace is then too hard to find
I am told, at the end, we need to choose one
one role to play, one path to tread life-long
we are not supposed to wander
run around the bushes, here and there
for we have a purpose to achieve magnificence
as if, anyone ever attained that
but nevertheless, you make and stick to the plan
don't become sour grapes amidst the green farm
but then being such a crazy being
even if I sit for a while, succumbing to dictated norms
it won't be long,that I am gone
in the mountains and melodious beats
what worst but death can I meet
but it is not worst, it is a fact for all
So I sit and laugh, fancy stupid things
keep your coveted job, praises and lords
keep your luxuries, fashion and trends
lemme just sit and wither away
counting the stars, painting its reflection on sand
oh I am such a nuisance, moron
maybe I'll try being someone else
hide behind the curtain of pretensions
show-off vague arrogance, high-handedness
live in denial for basic questions
yeah that's what it is, so be it
the trials and tribulations of humans
before the great salvation
But no, I'm not gonna choose when no need
aimless traveller is what I will be
see it sounds nice already
a pretending, awesome being
I'll make my huts and woods
carve its beautiful walls
make a flute and play it day long
eat the herbs, dine in the wilderness
smile with the flowers and chant with the birds
thee complex human existence,
adieu, time for farewell